yup, I let it die again. I also started this post with a lowercase letter which is now driving me crazy, but I refuse to change it. I also feel like a copycat because I saw a friend reviving his blog, but this was not my intent, I have been meaning to do this for a while. “Why did you take so long to do this?” you may ask (or you might not), well I have had a problem with motivation and having fun recently. I have been lacking motivation (and a girlfriend (or dates at all (MORE NESTED PARENTHESES!))) in my life; why do I do what I am doing? I have been trying to figure this out and I still haven’t found an answer, it really is a fascinating question and its answer is definitely not simple. Currently, I have quite a few friends and some hobbies, but I didn’t in 6th grade. In 6th grade I was somewhat (READ: very) antisocial and pretty much zero hobbies, but more motivation. One would originally think having more friends would give you motivation to do things, but it seems it doesn’t, why don’t they give you a reason to keep going? Well I think having something means you lose motivation to get things (if that makes sense). *DEVICE DISCONNECTED* <- the connection to my brain’s raw output was lost 🙁 I shall do another post at a different point in time, perhaps a continuation of this!
I love writing in these brain dumps, they are like commentaries that I just type out and I plan on doing them more often, even if I am the only one reading them. You may notice they have a different writing style than a formal writing; this is because it is more or less a raw output from my brain.
EDIT: I am working on finding a theme I like for my blog.